me stuff
still got the rashes. am starting to get mini-bruises because of too much scratching. arrggh! so...itchy...but...must...not...scratch...!!!!
and totally forgot to mention on last blog entry: I HAVE HYPERLIGAMENTOUS LAXITY! nothing too big really. just that my ligaments are sort of lax (hence the name) and that my patella (as with the rest of the parts of my body that have joints) can dis- and relocate easily. and can so flex a lot. (i think) which is actually really cool if you think about it, because i can do all sorts of things that normal people couldn't. like bend my thumb so that it touches, like, the area three (or two-and-a-half) inches below my wrist. cool. except the pain part isn't so nice. because let me tell you, it's so not cool when my (left) knee hurts. it's not hurt like moderate-headache hurt, it's like oh-my-god-is-my-knee-broken kind of hurt because i can sort-of feel it snapping form the inside. ouch. i don't even cry when it hurts...it's like i don't even have the energy to do it. cry i mean. because it hurts so much. i just scream. like, "ayoko na!" types of screams (in english that means, "i am so not liking this anymore!!!" not literally, of course. actually, 'ayoko' means 'i don't like this/it' and 'na' means 'anymore'. okay. so i guess it is.).
and i srarted reading noli me tangere (latin for 'touch me not' or 'huwag mo akong salingin' in filipino) again and just realized that textbooks really *do* make stuff more boring--if i actually read about half the vivid imagery that i've read in the first nine pages of the english version, then i actually would've been liked to study it last year. but because they left out all the good descriptions i was too bored to even listen to discussions. i didn't even know about salome then).
and i had a panic attack again. (i don't even know if that's what it's called. but i have to call it something) i hate it when that happens. usually i have them when my dad's scolding me--not even really really REALLY scolding...just telling me off with a loud voice--i usually find it hard to breathe and then cry. because i'm scared of not being able to breathe and also because of my dad--who when i start to hyperventilate still keeps on scolding me and telling me to breathe properly with his voice that makes my lungs go boom-boom (and not in a good way. i mean, hello, i'm already hyperventillating because i'm scared of you, so why do you keep on scolding me? do you want me to die or something? ) anyways, it's really hard because then i take really really really deep breaths that don't seem to satisfy my lungs--even though they seem to take twice as much lung space, but whatever--and they come in really really loud. like gasps, only more frequent. actually the first time that happened was when i got scared of our dog--yes, we have a dog but i'm also deathly scared of them...i won't even run out of the house if they're notteid up on a leash somewhere or in a cage...or with a five foot stick and/or umbrella--but my dad was also there then. he was yelling and telling me that those freaking dogs weren't gonna eat me, and that i was so much bigger than them and that i shouldn't be scared of them (but in typical Dad Way--the one which i was and still am deathly scared of). i mean, hello, of course i know that they won't eat me. whoever said they would? i'm just not so keen on getting rabies, that's all. i know it's sort if irrational (i'm not that dumb), i mean, my 8 year-old sister plays with them and she hasn't even bitten by a dog ever, but that's why it's called an irrational fear. i know it's stupid to fear dogs (or my dad, for that matter) but i can't help it. i've seen how violent they can get. both my dad and the dogs.
anyways, i'm so bored because i've been trying to download r.o. patches all day (but can't really finish because people keep having to use the phone so i keep on doing it over everytime someone does) so now that no one's actually bothering me, here are some stuff i found on quizfarm:
drama freak? i don't think so. i'm a great liar. but an actress? i so wish. but at least got they movie thing right.
honestly, i don't even know what uniplolar depression is. i'll look it up later.
so, so true.
hottie? i dunno. nerdy? definitely.
i so know.
The "How To Tell If One Of Your Friends Is In Love With You" Quiz
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i hope so. i really, really hope so. (i actually took this one twice, but with the same results. if only it were true...)
snape? that's hot.
and totally forgot to mention on last blog entry: I HAVE HYPERLIGAMENTOUS LAXITY! nothing too big really. just that my ligaments are sort of lax (hence the name) and that my patella (as with the rest of the parts of my body that have joints) can dis- and relocate easily. and can so flex a lot. (i think) which is actually really cool if you think about it, because i can do all sorts of things that normal people couldn't. like bend my thumb so that it touches, like, the area three (or two-and-a-half) inches below my wrist. cool. except the pain part isn't so nice. because let me tell you, it's so not cool when my (left) knee hurts. it's not hurt like moderate-headache hurt, it's like oh-my-god-is-my-knee-broken kind of hurt because i can sort-of feel it snapping form the inside. ouch. i don't even cry when it hurts...it's like i don't even have the energy to do it. cry i mean. because it hurts so much. i just scream. like, "ayoko na!" types of screams (in english that means, "i am so not liking this anymore!!!" not literally, of course. actually, 'ayoko' means 'i don't like this/it' and 'na' means 'anymore'. okay. so i guess it is.).
and i srarted reading noli me tangere (latin for 'touch me not' or 'huwag mo akong salingin' in filipino) again and just realized that textbooks really *do* make stuff more boring--if i actually read about half the vivid imagery that i've read in the first nine pages of the english version, then i actually would've been liked to study it last year. but because they left out all the good descriptions i was too bored to even listen to discussions. i didn't even know about salome then).
and i had a panic attack again. (i don't even know if that's what it's called. but i have to call it something) i hate it when that happens. usually i have them when my dad's scolding me--not even really really REALLY scolding...just telling me off with a loud voice--i usually find it hard to breathe and then cry. because i'm scared of not being able to breathe and also because of my dad--who when i start to hyperventilate still keeps on scolding me and telling me to breathe properly with his voice that makes my lungs go boom-boom (and not in a good way. i mean, hello, i'm already hyperventillating because i'm scared of you, so why do you keep on scolding me? do you want me to die or something? ) anyways, it's really hard because then i take really really really deep breaths that don't seem to satisfy my lungs--even though they seem to take twice as much lung space, but whatever--and they come in really really loud. like gasps, only more frequent. actually the first time that happened was when i got scared of our dog--yes, we have a dog but i'm also deathly scared of them...i won't even run out of the house if they're notteid up on a leash somewhere or in a cage...or with a five foot stick and/or umbrella--but my dad was also there then. he was yelling and telling me that those freaking dogs weren't gonna eat me, and that i was so much bigger than them and that i shouldn't be scared of them (but in typical Dad Way--the one which i was and still am deathly scared of). i mean, hello, of course i know that they won't eat me. whoever said they would? i'm just not so keen on getting rabies, that's all. i know it's sort if irrational (i'm not that dumb), i mean, my 8 year-old sister plays with them and she hasn't even bitten by a dog ever, but that's why it's called an irrational fear. i know it's stupid to fear dogs (or my dad, for that matter) but i can't help it. i've seen how violent they can get. both my dad and the dogs.
anyways, i'm so bored because i've been trying to download r.o. patches all day (but can't really finish because people keep having to use the phone so i keep on doing it over everytime someone does) so now that no one's actually bothering me, here are some stuff i found on quizfarm:
You scored as drama freak. You're a drama freak. Maybe you've been in too many school plays. Or maybe you watch movies to much. Oh well. At least you have a clique and worshiping fans.
Which completely realistic small town high school stereotype fits you? created with QuizFarm.com |
drama freak? i don't think so. i'm a great liar. but an actress? i so wish. but at least got they movie thing right.
You scored as Unipolar Depression. Congraulations! You are depressed! You know just how it feels to bear all the world's burdens, and the value of a 19-hour night's sleep. And you really hate that circle-guy thing on your Zoloft pill packets.
Which mental disorder do you have? created with QuizFarm.com |
honestly, i don't even know what uniplolar depression is. i'll look it up later.
You scored as Controlling. You are a control freak. Stop trying to control others! You cant MAKE them do anything, so stop trying. Let them make their own mistakes. You cant be right all the time.
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so, so true.
 | You scored as Geek/Nerd. Haha! ok. go computer geeks!
What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To? created with QuizFarm.com |
hottie? i dunno. nerdy? definitely.
 | You scored as Logical/Mathematical. You like to work with numbers and ask questions. You learn best by classifying information, engaging in abstract thinking and looking for common basic principles. People like you include mathematicians, biologists, medical technicians, geologists, engineers, physicists, researchers and other scientists.
The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences created with QuizFarm.com |
i so know.
| You scored as Your Friend Is Truly, Madly, and Deeply In Love With You!. Wow. You must be blind to answer all those questions and not have realized this yourself! If I were you I would confront this friend and ask them to tell you the truth about who they REALLY love. |
The "How To Tell If One Of Your Friends Is In Love With You" Quiz
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i hope so. i really, really hope so. (i actually took this one twice, but with the same results. if only it were true...)
 | You scored as Severus Snape. Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.
Your Harry Potter Alter Ego Is...? created with QuizFarm.com |
snape? that's hot.
