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Plato had nothing on you. Your brain is working so hard and so fast, you could give that philosopher a run for his money. But you've got a lot going on right now, and you'll have more success if you focus on you.

so true. sometimes i think too much it makes me cry. so i sleep on it.

i am honestly so bummed with the whole paul thing. (i think i may be manic-depressive. or at least cyclothymic. i was unusually elated last weekend, but not i don't even care. i get really high highs and really low lows. sometimes even lower.)

you know what? i'm done with guys. i am so sick of all of it.

non-stop 48-hour giddiness. unnatural, especially for
me. i can stomp on my spirits myself and don't need anybody
else to do it for me, thank you very much. but now...i've been
continuously happy for the past two days. this is really rare for
me (sometimes i can't stay happy for more than five minutes due to my
over-overanalyzation which results to me expecting the worst out of the
best things) so, as long as it's here...huwahahahahaha!!!!



so onto The National Bookstore Incident.



i wasn't planning on going, really. i wanted to stay home due to
another truckload of projects dumped on me. and to think it's
only been two weeks after exams! anyways, i actually wanted to be
left home. but then, i thought, what if by some chance, i meet
paul in the bookstore? so i went.



when we arrived at the mall, we (mum, kat, kaye and i) immediately went
to the bookstore. usually, i reserve that for last (when the
'rents are buying groceries), but since we were already there, i
decided, what the heck.



i was already a bit giddy then--i mean, hello, up to 70% off!
anyways, i went to the fiction section (as i always do). guess
who was standing between the shelves, searching for books, looking so
hot in his outfit (it was only a printed white shirt and those longish
shorts, but omg, he looked so cute)?



PAUL. PAULPAULPAULPAUL.



i totally didn't see that one coming. (okay, i did, seeing as
we're both geekish and all, but i wasn't actually expecting to find
him. i just thought i might.)



i was so shocked i couldn't speak. i was horrified when i heard
my sister yell, <i>"SI PAUL O!"</i> (i guess she was
shocked too, but she reacts in a totally different way.) i had no
time to ogle (how stupid would that look?) so i just smiled, waved, and
approached him.



then the book talk started. (i was in cloud nine then so i couldn't remember anything. some, but not everything.)



at times the events from the day before would eventually pop up in our
conversation--random quips of "we won! we won!" and all
that. the two of us were still practically jumping for joy
27 hours later. he was unusually giddy too. i noticed
this because both of us were bloody moody and couldn't normally stay
happy for more than a couple of minutes--becuase sometimes, we see
someone being so incompetent (or something else that irritates us) then
we start ranting again. so we were both unusually giddy.
actually, before he realized i was the girl at the end of the aisle, he
looked kinda serious, but then i came and he was all smiles.
seiously. i was not dreaming this. i think.



so i started analyzing again after that. i was thinking, "i'm not
really *that* happy about us winning. the actual reason for my
unusual giddiness is because paul put his arm around me when we were
practicing the tableau. which wouldn't be a bit odd if we were
told to do it. but we weren't. anyway, normally the
happiness would've worn out by that time, but because a real live cute
guy was involved, i couldn't stop smiling and laughing (mostly by
myself) about it."



wait...i forgot which point i was going to make. ah, whatever. i'll just continue what i started.



so i thought, "he acted weird when we were actually presenting. i
was trying to meet his eyes--no mean feat, since he was looking
somewhere else. but not in any particular place, just any place
that my eyes weren't. our eyes met a couple of times, but we
would look away almost immediately. then i remembered what joseph
told me--guys find it hard to meet the eyes of the girls they actually
<i>like</i>. i mean, if it were just allen or froi or
whoever, i'd be laughing, but since it was someone i actually
<i>liked</i>, it was more complicated. maybe it's the
same with him. if it were erika or ira or whoever, it'd be
easy. so maybe he does like me. i mean, think about
it. we always get teased in class. not like a gazillion
people know that i have a crush on him--just ira, virgilio, mariel (i
doubt she remembers) and shella (diane remains utterly clueless, even
though i told her). but we always get teased. possibly
because we always end up together--walking to the gym during p.e.,
sitting beside the bleachers during practice, talking animatedly in the
classroom about a subject none of our classmates know anything
about--or maybe they know something i don't. maybe. (highly
unlikely though.) but when i think about it, even people from
other sections tease us. last one was mae, when we were talking
outside their classroom, then i saw paul and pointed him out to
her. then she was like, "hi paul!" next thing i knew, she
was pushing me towards him with this playful look in her eyes (she was
looking at paul while she was doing it)."



wait...i'll continue this later. need to eat.

You come to grips more frequently and thoroughly with yourself and your environment than do most people. You detest superficiality. You'd rather be alone than have to suffer through small talk. Your relationships with your friends are very strong, which gives you the inner tranquility and harmony that you require. You do not mind being alone for extended periods of time. You are rarely bored.

the 'rarely bored' thing is so true. give me a space to sit/stand
on and i'll be daydreaming the, um, day away. and i really do
like being alone. people irritate me sometimes and the only
person i can totally tolerate is myself.

Your Room
	The Window: Your Attitude Your choice of the "main street" window reveals a personality with a preference for an urban lifestyle. You may be described as directed, solid, concrete, busy, utilitarian, serviceable, full of life, gritty with a taste for asphalt and easy shopping. You seem to attract a crowd who is very fast, often polluted, gaseous and acquisitive.
Click to Play!	The Music: Your Lover You rock while your partner rolls creating a pulsing beat that reaches to your very core. Your passion is deep and demanding, yet can often be fickle as it is pulled from one trend to the next, constantly trying to find a real hot groove.
	The Pictures: Your Relationships Revealing an outgoing person with multiple friends and family who enjoys the ego stroking of putting his/her best stuff on display. May also mean that the person has eclectic taste in people (prefers groups) and does not like to be limited to monogamous relationships.
	The Garbage: Your Problems Problems come and go in your life but they do not cause you undue stress. You relax in the knowledge that you have an enduring, attractive and stylish response to the detritus of life. Your supreme confidence frees you from convention. Problems need not be hidden from sight but rather are handled in a transparent, translucent and effortless manner. You are on your way to achieving guru status for your wise handling of life's problems.
	The Clock: Your Future Your future is that of a visionary, imagining scenarios for the next millennium. You may find yourself at home in an expansive industrial space,or marking time in a future warped out of a Douglas Coupland novel. Guard against your tendency for depression at your core. It is pronounced and evident to all. While this could cause consternation your off-beat sense of yourself redefines your concave, pillowy body as a life saving buoy fed solely on peanut butter thumbprint cookies. Your hands continually caress your external self causing others to accuse you of an inflated ego, but you know that time will pass and prove you to be right on.

not so sure about this one.



putting The National Bookstore Incident on my next post. giddiness still on after 45 hours. omg, record time!

had to cut my last entry short because kaye had to use the phone "for a while". what didn't realize was two damn hours was still "a while" for her. okay, i have to remember that before i let her cut in on me like that. so...back to fil week.

we had practices all week long. we weren't together much those times, actually. he was being his typical loner/weirdo self again and was separated from everyone most of the time (as was i). he was reading a book i lent him, coraline by neil gaiman. honestly, i didn't really like it, but hey, maybe i just didn't get it.

i just remembered something! this happened during the time i was too busy to blog.

i was being typical me--moody, weird and loner-ish with oc tendencies. i was just sitting in my, um, seat, when he came to me. he was all, "hey...gusto mong hiramin?" then waved the fantastic beasts and where to find them in front of me. and what's the bloody significance, i hear you say? wala lang. ahihi. :) i ust thought it was nice that he remembered that i told him that i didn't have that book.

and OHMYGOD. do you know who my best friend (not) demonica just went steady with? JOSEPH.

i mean, hello, eew.

it's not like i'm jealous or anything, because i can honestly say that i'm not. it's weird actually. i'm just depply disgusted. i mean, hello, EEWW! but whatever. it's his life, he should be able to make his own desisions. and if he chooses to like/love little miss prissy bitch (and i do mean *little*), it's his prerogative.

and, as we (ira, mae p. and i) say when we see them together, YUCKNESS. lol.

and i actually had a real connection with florenz yesterday. not the romantic one, though--i mean, seriously? i would consider him, since he's so nice and all, but i'd rather have the omg!RockersUnite kind of bond. i don't meet loads of rockers in this part of the world.

and albert. basta. i just like him. no, not likehim-likehim. just likehim-likehim. wait, was that even comprehensible? never mind. i'm actually planning in asking him about patricia icatlo. because i always see the two of them together. sometimes during recess and lunch, but mostly during dismissal. i remember paul and i walk past them when we were together (during dismissal), and they seemed oddly tight. so i'm planning on aksing him about it. just curious.

(random thoughts run through my head all of the time, so i'm apologizing in advance if what i say doesn't make any sense. you guys better get used to it.)

random thought number...something. i remember during practices...was it just me, or were we sitting beside each other far too many times than usual? and was he really staring at me? (i caught him about five times just today.)

that's where my instant messages to joseph come in. i asked him about guy behaviour (among other stuff). i asked him whether or not guys actually find it hard to stare the girls they like in the eye. he said yes, most of the time. i asked him because while we were dancing i was trying to catch paul's eye most of the time because we were supposed to look in love (i suppose we did, seeing as my sister was so kilig after watching us). and it was hard, considering that i was finding shy about staring him at the eye, too.

after that i asked joseph if guys actually stare at the girls they like. like i do whenever i have the chance to. he told me that yes, they do. but then he had to go because it was 7.30 and he had to get home. which reminds me--i have to ask him more questions tomorrow. i asked that because of the staring incidents. i wasn't actually sure if he was staring at me, but i think he actually was because every time i would stare at his direction, he would look somewhere else.

now the reason for my unnatural giddiness. i mean, i've been sleep-deprived the whole week and i've practically danced my sleep away, but still i've got energy to make kulit to joseph when we were IMing. i even shrugged off joseph's pang-iindian, even though i waited for him for quite a long time. that's just not me. because i'm naturally grumpy. if there were grump awards i would actually win most of them.

so, anyways, about my unnatural giddiness.

i wasn't looking forward to being partners with paul that day, actually. because i was thinking, "what exciting thing could possibly happen to me? i mean, it's not like he's truly madly deeply in love with me or something."

i was super grumpy most of the morning, actually. i didn't know why, but i was. everything felt like crap--clothes, people, food--you name it, i hate it (excpet paul, of course. and ira. and mae.). so i was being little miss grump when we had this general practice. we were practicing at the actual place where we were supposed to present. we weren't todo-bigay yet--we were so sabog, actually.

and then i remember that morning, when i was called to the guidance counselor (i thought i was in trouble for not getting an admission slip because i was late--along with nico and joseph. but then it turned out that they were going to make me introduce a guest speaker during career orientations on tuesday), he was all "oh, san ka nangaling?" when i came back. ha! he noticed!

okay, wait. i'm a bit sleepy, so i'm going to make it short and get to the important part already.

so we practiced the last part, which was a tableaux. paul was flying a kite and i was supposed to, like, admire the kite-flying (or something). and that was supposed to be it. he was flying this (extremely long) kite and i was supposed to be staring at it in (mock) amazement. (i felt really stupid.) i was totally surprised when he came closer and put his arm around my shoulders (OMG KILIG!!! AAA!!!!). i was so startled that i didn't know what to do next, so i put my arm around him, too. ::melts::

omg. it's been, like, 9 hours and the giddiness still hasn't worn off. that's practically surreal.

AH, BASTA INAKBAYAN AKO NI PAUL!!!!!!!!!! NUNG HINDI NAMAN SINABI!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(my sister was all, "omg nakita ko nakaakbay sayo si paul kanina!" i swear. kinikilig pa rin ako!!!!!!)

(^^just something i read somewhere. anyways...back to the not-so-regularly scheduled blog.)

haven't blogged much lately. i've realized i *can* actually live without it, but i choose not to. i still love writing (typing/blogging/whatever).

the past couple of weeks have been bloody hectic. exams, competitions and all that. and you now what? it was FUN.

well, okay, i lied. exams? not so fun. but it was okay, i guess, since i got the highest score in physics (i even beat paul, who's got the whole science geek thing going for him. which i find oddly attractive.) and i passed pretty much every subject, with the obvious exception of basic research (i mean, hello, who actually PASSED?) and p.e.(what the hell do i know about those bloody hand signals? hello? basketball is so not my thing. i can probably answer more if you ask me about taekwondo.)

and the competitions. filipino week totally ROCKED!!!

well, it wouldn've rocked so much if i wasn't partnered with paul. it was all their idea (i don't really know who 'they' are, but i have to tell you, 'they' totally rock, pairing me with paul and all). we were paired according to who would most possibly suit us as persons (and by persons, i mean lovestruck teens). at least that's what i think they did. anyways, mariel was with glenn (she had a crush on him a couple of years before, and they so get along)...oh, wait...that's pretty much it. come to think about it, i don't even remember who was with whom.

(joseph just logged on)

anyways, yeah, i don't remember. except that ira was with jake and apple was with inyaki (iziah). but that's just because i didn't care, BECAUSE I WAS WITH PAUL! ::jumps for joy::

we were together most of the time (kapartner nga eh) so i was überly happy. holding hands, sometimes on the waist, akbayan and all. ::melts:: aaahhhh!!! (in a good way)

and, as an added bonus, we actually WON!!!!

i hate making testimonials.

okay, not really, but i really really really hate making testimonials for people i don't know. or like, for that matter. sure, it's easy to write something about someone you don't actually know that much but generally like. but for someone you don't even like? um, sorry, pass na lang.

so what am i supposed to say? "you have really pretty hair!" (which she doesn't) or "you're really smart!" (which, believe me, she isn't) or even "i really really really like you!" (which i obviously don't). i don't wanna lie here, but they leave me with no choice.

i mean, am i supposed to tell her, "stop reading my diary! the reason why it's called a diary, stupidhead, is because it's private and nobody else is supposed to see it but me and the people i actually let see it, not the ones who force me to! DUH!!!" but obviously no one'd like to read that coming from her seatmate, right? but what's she going to do? say bad words at me? puh-lease.

this was written six days before h-bp. when i read it, i was thinking, like, omgwtf?! one of those almost-accurate-predictions!!!

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R.I.P. We will see Dumbledore take on the role of mentor to Harry. During Harry's sixth year, Dumbledore will give him individual tutoring, teaching him what he needs to know to face the Dark Lord. Then, at the end of the book, Dumbledore will die after having taught Harry everything he could, setting things up so, in the seventh book, Harry will have to face Voldemort alone without Dumbledore's help.— Jenny Latz-Hall, 21, St. Paul
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met someone new yesterday during the upcat. kim. (why am i not surprised?) andami ko talagang kapangalan!

went to eastwood last night after it. the upcat, i mean. man, that was haaard! i'm not going to narrate that anymore coz i don't want to relive the agony of filipino reading comprehension. it was about a mile harder than english. honestly.

so anyways...eastwood. BOOKSALE!!! TWENTY PERCENT OFF! OHMYGOSH! so i bought the first three artemis fowl books. for 630 (or something like that). omg! what a bargain!

***

i'm supposed to be studying (again), actually. but i'm too lazy to. ah, whatever.

upcat na bukas. hala. patay.

***

so. eto na naman. nasisiraan na ng ulo. kasi naman eh...hai...(pag may 'hai', isa lang ang ibig sabihin...tungkol un sa lalaki. na totoo sa lagay na to.)

naiinis lang ako kasi anlabo! arrrgh! nakakaasar! bakit ba kasi ako abnormal...lahat na lang ata ng lalaking tao crush ko...(i mean, not *all* obviously, but a lot more than a normal person's. all of which do not include me.) so...etong listahan:

1. jake - tinutukso kami nito parati sa classroom. actually, wala lang talaga kong magawa kahapon kaya ko xa pinaypayan. saka mejo pang-inis rin lang kay paul. but i really do like him kasi he can be responsible and kalog at the same time. and he was the first who carried me nung nag-convulsion ako. that was real nice :)
2. paul - the only one who can truly get me. kasi parehong pareho kami mag-isip eh. it's a bit freaky, actually. and he always teases me to other guys. ewan ba dun. pag nagkatabi lang kami ni jake or ni jerwin (or whoever...sometimes i think he even stares at glenn and me pag basic research (seatmate ko si glenn, nasa likod ko naman si paul)), asahan mo na after a few seconds eh ituturo na ko nun sa katabi niya. tapos parati rin kaming tinutukso sa classroom...and i'm pretty sure na hindi obvious na crush ko xa. kasi mas kinareer ko na ung pagiging nice kay jake. para mejo ma-mislead ung classmates namin. pero despite that, pag nagkatabi kami ni paul (kunyari sa paglalakad lang papuntalng p.a./computer/physics/whatever lab) tapos nagdaldalan kami, paniguradong tutuksuhin na naman kami ng classmates namin. as usual. sabi nga nila bagay kami eh. sabi ko naman oo. sa isip ko nga lang.
3. glenn - ewan...crush ko lang talaga. i mean, he *is* a bit nice...and he's the silent type...kanina nga he just took my notebook tapos ikinopya niya ko ng pointers sa basic research. how nice, no? and i caught him staring din nung nanonood ung iba ng band marching at nakaupo kami ni jake dun sa may mga bag. hehe. wala lang. share :)
4. joseph - i had a crush on him last year pa, actually. pero i dunno...he seems a lot nicer now. he was always nice naman...pero now...parang nag-intensify. parang ung kahapon nga...he was asking me kung kumain na ko. tapos he offered to remind me to go to sleep early kasi maaga kong kukuha ng upcat bukas...lam mo na. the sweet stuff. he's the type na tinutukso ka parati pag nasa harap ng maraming tao...tapos pag kau na lang quiet lang xa. pero pag ka-im or ka-text madaldal saka sweet. tapos i learned pa from karen na he keeps the letter i gave him last year (binigyan ko lahat, actually) dun sa wallet niya. i don't know what the hell that means. kung alam nio, tell me naman please! i mean, does he like me? does he hate me? does he know that i exist?

yan lang naman (ata). pero madami na rin yan, diba? kasi the people i know only have just one or two crushes, whereas i've got FOUR. ano ba yan! nakukulitan na nga ako sa utak ko eh!

***

eto pala. nalaman ko lang to kanina (or nung isang araw ba?...EWAN!) nakuwento ko na yung nung wednesday, diba? yung tungkol sa pesteng band marching na yun.

tinutukso din kasi kami ni jake ng teacher naamin sa economics nung time na yun. actually, nahuli ko rin xang nakatingin eh. pero ndi ko na lang pinansin.

(OMG!!! ONLINE SI JOSEPH!!!!!)

anyways...(breathe in, breathe out. breathe in, breathe out. breathe in, breathe out.) kasi nga diba, nakuwento ko na yung nakatayo ako sa gilid ng gym, tinititigan yung fire tree. tapos si jake, andun sa (AARRGGGHH! DC!!!) may mga upuan sa pathwalk papunta sa gym. nun pa palang time na un eh tinutukso na kami ni ma'am. sabi ba naman, "nag-away ung lovers!" tapos nung magkatabi na kami dun sa may mga bags, sabi "uy, bati na sila!" nakakatawa, actually, and i couldn't help but laugh with them because of paul's unusual behavior and the whole 'lovers in paris' thing.

nag-online pala si joseph para sabihing papunta xang manila. magpaalam ba daw sakin...how nice! hehe...tapos text na lang daw nia ko. un. kaso naputol kasi nag-dc ako eh. amp. lintek na pldt vibe yan. napakagaling tumiming.

pero astig pa rin. magpaalam ba daw sakin...hehe XD

astig talaga'ng dashboard...(soundtrippin' again!)

***as lovers go***
She said, "I've gotta be honest.
You're wasting time if your're fishing round here."
And I said, "You must be mistaken,
'Cause I'm not fooling.
This feeling is real."
And she said, she said, "You've gotta be crazy.
What do you take me for, some kind of easy mark?
You got wits, you got looks, you got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong, all wrong,
But you've got me.

"I'll be true
I'll be useful
I'll be cavalier
I'll be yours, my dear
And I'll belong to you if you just let me through

This is easy as lovers go
So don't complicate it by hesitating
This is wonderful as loving goes
This is tailor made
What's the sense of waiting?

***hands down***

my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
so won't you kill me, so i'd die happy
my heart is yours so fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
whichever prefer

hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
i'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock when we realized
it's so late and the walk that we shared together
the street was wet and the gate was locked
so i jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and i knew that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it,
and i knew, that you meant it, that you meant it."

***

dashboard confessional = love <3

(just got off from IMing joseph)
sometimes he can be so sweet ::melts::..hai!

***

i'm here to talk about paul. again. (what's new?!)

every day he amazes me even more. really. i mean, we even hate the same teachers. and we can talk about snogging without flinching. that's so...unreal.

and the teasing continues. we had p.e. today and, not being allowed to play, i tried to find stuff to do. so i resorted to fanning anyone who sat beside me. at first it was froi, then he had to play and jake sat at his seat. so i fanned him. jake, i mean. then i noticed someone snickering in front of me: paul. again. he was pointed at us to, like, show that i was fanning jake. and he was snickering. again. so i was all, "fine. papaypayan din kita. para fair." so i fanned both of them. and myself. but when i fanned jake, he was all, "uuuyy!" so i said, "sige na, sige na. ikaw na. baka magselos ka eh!" so then he said, "nyee..." and then we laughed. then we talked about lotsa other stuff (the divine proportion, snogging, college...)

i remember him doing exactly the same thing yesterday. i already wrote about that, so i won't repeat it. but then ira told me during recess that he did that point-and-snicker thing more than i noticed. and then she said that there was this teeny-tiny possibility that he was going to ask me to dance in the next school dance (the celestial party). like, OMG! lol. i'm going all fangirlish again. but i hope he does. ask me, i mean.

college = squee!!!

leaving high school = not so squee-worthy :'(

i've been so busy these past few days. i'd love it (mainly because mas masarap matulog pag pagod [you'll appreciate sleep better if you're tired]), but, you know, i'd rather sleep :p. but now i'm really starting to feel it. the excitement, i mean, of looking for a half-decent college to go to. it's real nice, getting a bit of tension in my un-squee-worthy life.

so...today. it's been funny. talked to paul first thing in the morning. i was talking to jerwin, actually, then he saw us then said, "siguro naging kayo no?" ("the two used to be together, didn't you?" crappy translation. i know. but whatever. i'm still practicing.) so i was like, "nyeeee...ano yun, JOKE??!!" ("what, was that supposed to be a JOKE??!!" because when we were in sophomore year, jerwin and i used to fight a lot. our adviser got so mad at me for shouting at jerwin once.)

then in the afternoon, we came to the gym to watch the juniors' band marching presentations (for once, st. jerome won, unlike last year, when we won nada. progress! oh yeah!) during library and guidance period. paul and i walked together to the gym and talked about stuff like rain man (dustin hoffman!) and rain, among others.

when we arrived at the gym i was felt like crap because we didn't get to do band marching (i would've never been included becuase i'm not supposed to march, but it would've been fun--having no classes for a few days and all) so i went into senti mode. i just stood at the side of the gym, examining the fire tree (i love that tree!) from afar (naks!). i was deep in thought when i noticed someone sitting just a few paces from me--jake (out class president). he wasn't watching the band matching either, and was taking down notes for el fili instead. so i approached him and asked the usual questions ('what chapter've you gotten to?' 'up to what chapter do we have to do?' etcetcetc).

then it started raining. and i mean RAINING. it was raining so hard that the part where jake was sitting was already getting so wet, so he transferred to the place beside me. we stood at first, but then i told him, "sit down, why don't you? it'd be a lot more easier to write that way." so we did. sit down, i mean. then our classmates (those half-wits (j/k. or not.) that were so engrossed in watching the juniors pretend to play fake instruments) started noticing us. together. together?! pfft. as if!

one of them was paul. he would actually point and point and point and then laugh and laugh and laugh (not in a mean way, of course) and then he'd point us out to anyone standing beside him. it was irritating, really, because he doesn't realize that it was him i have pined for all this time. (lol^^) then they (classmates/half-wits) were all like, "uuuy...lovers in paris!" and i was like, "ah, whatever." because i liked paul. and glenn. (he stared too. i just noticed.) not jake. i mean, not that much.

then in the afternoon, i went to the cashier's office to pay tuition. i was with katrina. we were talking (as usual) when paul arrived. so then i had the two of them to talk to. then jerwin passed by and i called him, becuase i forgot to ask chel for his project in religion. then paul was all, "uuuyyy!" again.

i hope he's just doing that becuase he's jealous. i hope. i mean, i *am* allowed to dream, am i?

and about the college applications. i just got my u.p. test permit and the exam on saturday in the college of arts and letters, which, i learned, is just beside palma hall and math building. at 6.30 in the moring. tell me, how am i supposed to come up with decent ansewers at such an indecent time? i mean, 6.30? what is up with that? who's even awake at that time of day?