Thursday, March 30, 2006 

I'm tiiiiired.

Sunday, March 26, 2006 

i hate this.

Monday, March 20, 2006 

AT Grad today.

I sat. And sat. And sat.

'Twas fun.

***

General Cleaning = also today.

Teh fun :)

I didn't clean much really. Paul, Ria and I just sat on a spot together making a testi for Madel.

***

Ummm...Ano pa ba?

No classes tomorrow and on Wednesday. Yay!!!

Albert, Mae, Paul and I are watching DVDs at my place. Bonding. LOL

Friday, March 17, 2006 

Tapos na ang final finals.

Yess.

Still ain't home free, tho. Have a ton of requirements to complete. Aaack.

Makakapagsulat na siguro ako ng matino. Siguro.

***

Hindi lang ako t@nga. G@go pa ko.

Okay, so I have this one guy who is crazy about me.

And what do I do? I try to drive him away. I try to make him angry at me. I try to make him jealous. I try to alienate him.

Why the hell do I do it?

Haaay...Kung alam ko lang ang reason.

I do the loads of crazy things. I talk constantly about the guys I'm crushing on. (Martin this, Joed that...Martin and I got caught talking during exams, it was soo funny...Mae told Joed I had a crush on him...kanina, sa canteen, I saw him smirk when he saw me...ack, it was soo embarassing....) I ignore him. ( ... ) I avoid him. (WTF, do we have to be joined at the hip?) I don't call him. I don't text him. I don't do anything.

But still he stays.

Parinig tuloy si Mae kanina.

"Paul, pinalitan ka na ni Kim. Kami na!!!"

lol.

We chuckle. Then Mae speaks again. "Ikaw nga din, hanap ka ng iba. Pagselosin mo si Kim."

I say, "Ano ba, andito pa ko ah!!!" I laugh.

Paul says, "Bakit pa ko hahanap ng iba, eh andito na nga sa tabi ko?..."

Aaaww.

<3

I am sooo mean.

I HATE MYSELF.


***

Teka nga. Sabi ko nga pala matinong post na. Pero aaarrrggghhh....wala akong maisip.....|-(

Aaay, wait...GLENN!!!

LOL. Wala lang. Hehe.

***

Thursday, March 16, 2006 

kala mo lang

Hindi ko talaga matiis.

Last kwento ko na 'to, promise.

***

Lagi saing sinasabi ng ga tao, unang impression nila sakin, INOSENTE, MABAIT, at DI-MAKABASAG-PINGGAN.

Nagulat naman ako. *shocked* :-O

Kasi kung nakabasa ka ng kahit isang post lang, maiisip mo na na isa akong masamang tao. Pero mabait din naman. Minsan. Pag tulog. At pag may bagong crush.

Naisip ko kasing itanong kay Mae (uuy, plug) kung anong unang impression niya sakin. Naalala ko kasi yung sabi sakin ni Elixir dati. yun Mukha daw akong walang gagawing masama. Biglang sagot ni Mae, "Oo nga. Para ka ngang inosente."

Etong mukhang 'to? WALANG GAGAWING MASAMA?

Haha.

Pinapatawa nyo ko.

*WAHAHA*

(Hehe)

Okay, so I guess mukha nga akong mabait. Pero iba naman ang tumatakbo sa isip ko kahit na mukha akong, ehem, inosente.

Hindi niyo lang alam. ***EVIL LAUGH***

*talagang offline na*

 

Okay, nabura yung huli kong post.

I'm not too upset about it.

I guess yun ang paraan ni Lord ng pagsasabi (o pamimilit) sakin na MAG-ARAL na.

Final finals na bukas eh.

Mali pala. Nagsimula na pala yung final finals kahapon. At matatapos bukas.

Ah, basta. Mag-aaral na ko.

Uy, ngayon ko lang sinabi yan ah! Asenso!

(Teka, tatapusin ko muna tong Every Morning. Tas mag-aaral na ko.)

Okay, tapos na.

*offline*

 

Grabe, parang ang tagal ko nang hindi nagsusulat ng matino. Puro kung anu-anong stuff lang.

Eh bakit nga ba? Kasi...ewan. Tinatamad lang siguro talaga ko.

Ack. Hanggang ngayon tinatamad pa rin ako!!!!

***

Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
-Hold On, Good Charlotte

Sana lang.

Okay, I know for a fact na it *will* get better. Pero nakakatamad na maghintay.

Lalo na ngayon, exams pa.

Uy, apat na exam na lang!!! *wahahaha* Um, Religion (yuck), Physics, Computer at Music. Konti na lang! Yesss!!!!

Tapos kasama ko pa pala sina Martin at Ren sa room! YESS!!! INSPIRATION!!!!!! *HAHAHA*

***

Not-So-Random Kwento:

Gosh. Sinabi nga pala ni Mae kay Joed na crush ko sya (si Joed, hindi si Mae).

Tradisyon kasi saming magpasulat ng kung anu-anong dedication sa Student's Diary (uy, buo! Student's Diary! haha). Dahil nga graduation na in 15 days, pinasulat ni Papa Joed si Mae. (Magkaklase sila, St. Hannibal. Star section. Naks.)

Mae did the Unthinkable.

Sinabi ba naman (sinulat pala) kay Papa Joed, "Alam mo ba, meron akong kaibigang gustong makilala ka ng lubusan. Itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang Kim."

OHMYGOD.

I burst out laughing nung sinabi niya yun. LOL

Kanina, nakatabi ko siya sa pila sa canteen. Kausap ko sina Jecha, Diane at Ira. Teka...andun din pala si Paul. (Nyak) Syempre, dahil nga crush ko siya, napapatingin ako sa direction nia. Napansin ko naman, napapatingin din sya sakin. Napapa-smile pa. Tuwa naman ako. Hehe...Kilig!!! (Gosh. Haba ng hair! Haha)

Saka ko naalala na sinabi nga pala ni Mae.

ACK!

Ano kayang iniisip nun???!!!!

Nagtago na lang ako sa likod ni Jecha.

*kakahiya*

 

OMG I just realized something.

I've been reading my past posts (from, like, a year back) and I've suddenly realized that for the past year or so, my life has practically revolved around Him.

I ate, slept, dreamt, breathed Him. (Well, practically.)

Makes me think what a big loser I am. Ack.

And the ironic thing is, now that I actually have him, I DONT THINK I WANT HIM ANYMORE. I want him back where he used to be. Away from me. Far far FAAAR away from me.

Like Albert said, "Um-oo-oo ka pa kasi eh."

Oo nga naman. Um-oo-oo pa kasi ako eh. Ack. How gaga of me.

***

Hindi siya nagparamdam all night.

Normally, he would've at least called. Or sent a measly text message saying how much he misses/missed me.

But he didn't even say good night.

Ack. Bahala xa.

***

I've been thinking (again).

Just as there's a reason for me hating him sometimes, there's also a reason for me liking him sometimes. Now I'm trying to remember what the friggin' reason is.

***

I said something smart, for once.

I was trying to make Albert feel better about the whole thing with his #2. So I told him, "If there's someone out there better than you, then there's someone out there better for you."

***

Been reading my past posts. It's making me wonder what happened to me back then, using such big words and all (aberrant? what the hell does *that* mean?!). Maybe my vocab just shrunk. I dunno.

***

aberrant: 1 : straying from the right or normal way ; 2 : deviating from the usual or natural type : ATYPICAL

Sunday, March 12, 2006 

senti mode...

Hindi pa ko gumagraduate, nag-sesenti na agad ako.

Haaay.

Ayoko pa umalis!!!

Sobrang napatawa ko ng naalala ko 'tong mga 'to. Siguro matatawa din kayo sa mga trip namin. Hehe. XD

QUOTABLE QUOTES…

? They conscience me eh = Paolo

? Kevin... Kevin... Kevin...= Ma’am Seri

? I always have a conference slip with me = Ma’am Seri

? Azanezz = Shella

? How childish! = Knille

? Sulat kagad eh! = Kevin

? Friendship! =Carissa and Allen

? Hoy Ngongo!

? Di ako papayag na matalo tayo ng jude =Knille

? Dubidubidapdap = Renz

? nGo! nGo! =Renz

? AaAaAaAako’y Pilipino... = Renz

? Bee Happy! = Mariel

? Glenn! =Mariel

? Binastos ninyo ako St. Matthew... Makakarating ‘to sa adviser ninyo =Ma’am Umandap

? Sinong pinapatukuyan mong sulat kagad = Ma’am BeNG

? Di porke’t maliit ako at malaki ka... = Ma’am Beng

? Mangaya, you want to talk here = Sir Casorna

? Nasan yung ano ko! =Knille

? Hoy! Nawawala yung ano ko... Pakihanap naman = Knille

? Ulol! =Kawa

? Nag-aano ka ba? = Kawa

? Ilang beses = Kawa

? 3x a day, BAGO MALIGO! = Glenn

? Saya-saya dito! Katabi ko pa si Kevin = Shella

? Hinahangaan ko lang naman si Kevin eh = Shella

? inikilig ako!=Kawa

? AYYYY!!!! = Pam

? Rona, Bad Trip ka? = Ma’am Jhoan

? Ramos! = Ma’am Jhoan

? Plano nalang ulit tayo = Kevin

? Tanong ninyo kay Knille Allenn kung magkano =Kevin

? Bili nalang kasi tayo!

? Manuumbaaaaleeeek! = Erika

? Career Mode!

? Yuckerz1! =Shella

? AzzaNezz = Shella

? TskCorny =- Shella

? Ehe3=Shella

? Ngeh = Luela

? Close ba tayo?=Knille

? Paggawa naman ng PBC =Shella, Knille, Kawa, Mariel

? Oi, tumahimik na kasi kayo! = Jake!

? Ngeh, me masabi lang = Knille

? St. Matthew, align your chairs, pick up the pieces of paper = Ma’am Diokno!

? Ma’am ano po ulit, Ma’am again = Shella

 

Not 'it happened for the best,' but 'How can I make the best of what had happened?'

Wow. Oo nga naman.

Right now I'm teaching myself to be more optimistic. To see the bright side. The silver lining.

Kasi naisip ko, whatever happens, happens, right? So why worry?

(Okay, naisip ko lang, magawan nga ng article to. Pandagdag.)

***

Practice ng presentation sa Music kanina. We're singing Blue Moon (oo, seryoso), Sukiyaki, yung isang song ng The Beatles, saka Say A Little Prayer.

***

It's all because of you
I'm feeling sad and blue
You went away, now my life is just a rainy day
And I love you so
How much you'll never know
You've gone away and left me lonely.

Untouchable memories seem to keep haunting me
Love that's so true
That once turned all my gray skies blue
But you disappeared
Now my eyes are filled with tears
And I'm wishing you were here with me.

Soft with love are my thoughts of you
Now that you're gone I just don't know what to do.

If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine
And once again you'd be mine all mine
Reality
You and I will never be
You took your love away from me.

If only you were here
You'd wash away my tears
The sun would shine
Once again you'd be mine all mine.

In reality
You and I will never be
Cause you took your love away from me, oh baby
You took your love away from me.

Saturday, March 11, 2006 

Recited the Huling Pahimakas yesterday.

Surprisingly, I finished it.

Even though I only memorized, like, 10 stanzas.

I was like, "...Whaa??" more than half the time.

Ack.

***

I searched for the Huling Pahimakas on the net, and guess what the first search result was.

(click me)

Yep.

Looks like kami lang ata talaga ang pinapagtiyaga diyan.

Pero at least hindi katulad nung 6th Grade.

Adios patria adorada...

Ick.

***

Pero what inspired me to actually memorize the whole thing was these two stanzas:

(I forgot the first line already) Something-something-something sa pangungulimlim
Bayaang ang sinag ng madaling-araw sa aki'y paratnin
Ang hangi'y bayaang humimig ng kanyang malungkot na daing
At kung may ibong dumapo sa kurus ng aba kong libing
Bayaang ang ibo'y umawit ng kanyang dalanging taimtim.

Bayaang sa init ng araw, ang ulan ay pumailanlang
At saka bumalik sa langit lakip ang paos kong sigaw
(NOW I remember it. Gaaack)
Bayaang ang maaga kong pagtugpa'y itangis ng ilan
At kung dapit-hapon ay may mangisa-ngisang mag-ukol ng dasal
Idalangin mo, bayan ko, ang aking pagpapahingalay.

Buti na lang I came around to actually reading it. So even though I didn't get around to memorizing the last four stanzas, I got to recite it out of, well, memory.

Paalam na ako, mga minumutyang kapilas ng laman
Mga kababatang kalaru-laro ko sa dampang naluray
(Parang mali...hmm...)
Pasalamat kayo't ang aking paghihirap (?) ay magkakakatapusan
Paalam, mga taga ibang lupang aliw ko't katwaan
Paalam sa lahat;...ang mamatay ay isang pagpapahingalay!

Pagpapahingalay indeed.

Sunday, March 05, 2006 

Cancer

The Bottom Line

If the internal dialogue has become deafening, it's time talk to them face to face.

In Detail

The heavens are primed for encounters of the most delightful kind, and there's a touch of extremely unexpected romance in the air, too. This is a lovely combination, no matter what sign yours happens to be. In your case, however -- especially if there's someone you've been secretly thinking about, and you're wondering if they're doing the same -- the news is particularly good. Don't be surprised if you receive an answer to that question, via a startling coincidence that brings you two together.

uuuyyy...someone I know's GETTING SOME!!! <3>

***

It's indisputable that you have a way with words -- a gift for presenting logical, practical arguments that are awfully hard to disagree with. That talent will come through for you beautifully now, as always, especially at school, and especially if you add just a touch of charm to the mix when you're chatting with friends. After all, you know what they say about bees and honey. Buzz...

Ang yabang ng dating, pero...

Now THAT I believe. Personal experience tells me to.

***

My grandpa's birthday today. He's 86. Man, he's soo...old.

That's nothing, though. He's sharp as ever.

Good thing.

I love him soo much.

I'm soo gonna make you proud, Tay!

***

"If I'm going to say it, I'm going to say it in person. :-)"

aaawww....

***

The best thing I said all week:

"Ano ba, may iba ka pa bang iniisip? Sige na, sabihin mo lang...Pag-usapan natin..."

 

You're such a sucker for a sweet talker!

Okay. Aaminin ko, nung una, parang medyo nag-alinlangan dun sa super madalian kong decision.

Yun nga, super sucker ako. Hindi talaga ako marunong humindi. (Kapag super ayaw ko lang talaga.)

Pero ngayon, I guess okay na ko...nakakatawa nga eh...hehehe.

Kung wala lang yang EPAL na thesis na yan, malamang super saya ko ngayon.

God...it's just so...NICE.

LOL

<3!

Friday, March 03, 2006 

pasa ko sa u.p.-lb. haha. wala lang.

shock. as in.

 

horoscope. na naman.

horoscope. na naman.
Virgo

The Bottom Line

If you're truly compatible with the people you love, your relationships will endure.

In Detail

Lots of renewed friendships and long distance travel could be coming up -- and all possible combinations of the two are what you can look forward to. Whether you end up traveling to see an old friend, traveling with an old friend or receiving a visit from a long-lost loved one, it's going to be a month to remember. Be sure to keep not just your eyes, but also your mind, wide open.

***

Graduation. Syeeet.

***

THESIS!!!

***

GRAD BALL!!! YESSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***

Okay. So *this* is what it feels like. It's...weird.

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006 

O.A. talaga ko, tanggapin niyo na

Wala lang. I'm just saying. Hehehe

***

Mini olympics bukas. Ako na naman ata ang mapapagtripan. Asar naman.

Hello, kasalanan ko ba na may ligamentous laxity ako, na nag-ccause ng pain sa left knee ko? Kasalanan ko ba, ha? Sa pinanganak akong ganito eh. Sabi nga nung orthopedic surgeon, puede na daw ako sa circus. Kasi super flexible ng joints ko. Pero pag nasobrahan naman, sobra sobra talaga. Wag niyong sabihing o.a. ako (o.a. ako, pero hindi sa isuue na to), dahil I swear, masakit talaga. Alam mo yung feeling na parang mababali yung tuhod mo? Malamang hindi. At wag mo na ring dasalin na mangyari sa'yo, dahil tulad nga ng sinabi ko, MASAKIT. Sino ba'ng nag-utos saking tumakbo ng tumakbo at habulin at i-shoot ang isang bola? Anong point, ha? Sabihin niyo nga!

At bat nga ba mini olympics ang tinawag? Wala namang discus, javelin, long jump at hurdles...Meron lang kalamansi. Bat hindi na lang Extra Challenge o kaya Survivor-RC?

Pero wala na kong paki. Okay lang. Wala namang klase eh. *Bwahahaha*

***

Aaack. Thesis.

 

Virgo

The Bottom Line

Do you have ulterior motives you're not revealing? Find your true sense of purpose.

In Detail

If you've been wondering about whether or not you did the right thing in a recent situation, wonder no longer. You're about to receive a very direct hint from the heavens telling you that you're not just headed down the right path, but you're also aimed directly at making a cherished dream a reality. Pay attention to where you are right now-- and realize that you're only a few steps from where you've always wanted to be.

I know better than to believe this, but a little wishful thinking wouldn't hurt. *sigh*

***

Okay so Rustom (or Rustrum, according to Keanna, who is apparently R-rich) is Gay.

Sayang. Cute bali. Or at least according to Kaye.

It makes me wonder though. Why the hell do we get crushes on men/women who are a helluva lot older than our parents? Kasi...wala lang. Hugh Grant and all.

***

Aaack. Thesis.